Am I making a mistake again by allowing my wife to play with another man? Back in 2016 to 2019 we played on and off with five guys throughout those years and all those times I broke it off because of my guilt and shame. Quick backstory my wife did it for me and at though there was times she enjoyed it she hated herself for doing it and in 2018 we ended up losing our 7th ...... at 2 weeks old, and that devastated us both and I sunk deeper into my pornography and didn't know how to comfort her and we started to drift away.
And then in 2019 I brought it up again and she ended up meeting a guy on tinder and we met with him once just to talk since he lived 5 hours away from us and throughout the summer months she chatted him up on Snapchat and unbeknownst to me ended up falling in love with him and when she finally got to have sex with him in November of that year she wanted to divorce me and I stopped it right then and asked her to forgive me and we needed to work on her marriage and I need to work on myself my insecurities and pornography issues.
So we sought the help of a local church and they really helped us and we began to grow spiritually and emotionally close and it was a very hard road and I wouldn't change it for anything.
Well this last month we began to tell each other our fantasies and cuckolding was brought up again and so we just started to play with that in our bedroom.
Will fast forward to this last week I've been on the fence about wanting to see her f*** somebody and she has to but our drawback is not wanting to hurt each other and go down that hurtful road so anyways we have a vendor booth at our state fair and she is working it with me and she decided to get up and walk around and stretch your legs. Well that's really good looking redneck guy cross paths with her and they both looked at each other and smiled, and she said he walked around a couple booths and intercepted her again and asked her if she was enjoying the fair and she said yes so he asked her if she wanted some water so she followed him to his trailer. So he gave her some and he walked her halfway across the fair to my booth and said he had to get going but he would like to chat with her again over some food or a drink later on at the fairgrounds. So she came back to me all smiling and being mean and she looks so hot and sexy in her short shorts and tank top and her mind has been on cloud nine that someone actually talked and flirted and offered her some food.
So later on she left again to see if she could find them and he ended up coming by my booth to buy something from me and I knew it was him the way she described it and he knew it was me because she did tell him she was married.
So I think he might have been seeing what kind of husband I was lol. So I know he's interested cuz later on he walked by and looked in our direction. But she's been thinking about him all night and today while she shaved her legs and p**** before we go back to the fairgrounds before it opens she really wants something to happen! And so do I but at the same time I'm so nervous and my conscience is always freaking my heart! What do I do tell do I tell her it's okay just to flirt but nothing else or should we go the whole distance because I definitely don't want my wife falling in love with someone else again but I feel like since we're stronger than it might not happen but she's so giddy about this guy and I understand all women are when you meet someone new!
LOL I need someone else in my head besides me
And then in 2019 I brought it up again and she ended up meeting a guy on tinder and we met with him once just to talk since he lived 5 hours away from us and throughout the summer months she chatted him up on Snapchat and unbeknownst to me ended up falling in love with him and when she finally got to have sex with him in November of that year she wanted to divorce me and I stopped it right then and asked her to forgive me and we needed to work on her marriage and I need to work on myself my insecurities and pornography issues.
So we sought the help of a local church and they really helped us and we began to grow spiritually and emotionally close and it was a very hard road and I wouldn't change it for anything.
Well this last month we began to tell each other our fantasies and cuckolding was brought up again and so we just started to play with that in our bedroom.
Will fast forward to this last week I've been on the fence about wanting to see her f*** somebody and she has to but our drawback is not wanting to hurt each other and go down that hurtful road so anyways we have a vendor booth at our state fair and she is working it with me and she decided to get up and walk around and stretch your legs. Well that's really good looking redneck guy cross paths with her and they both looked at each other and smiled, and she said he walked around a couple booths and intercepted her again and asked her if she was enjoying the fair and she said yes so he asked her if she wanted some water so she followed him to his trailer. So he gave her some and he walked her halfway across the fair to my booth and said he had to get going but he would like to chat with her again over some food or a drink later on at the fairgrounds. So she came back to me all smiling and being mean and she looks so hot and sexy in her short shorts and tank top and her mind has been on cloud nine that someone actually talked and flirted and offered her some food.
So later on she left again to see if she could find them and he ended up coming by my booth to buy something from me and I knew it was him the way she described it and he knew it was me because she did tell him she was married.
So I think he might have been seeing what kind of husband I was lol. So I know he's interested cuz later on he walked by and looked in our direction. But she's been thinking about him all night and today while she shaved her legs and p**** before we go back to the fairgrounds before it opens she really wants something to happen! And so do I but at the same time I'm so nervous and my conscience is always freaking my heart! What do I do tell do I tell her it's okay just to flirt but nothing else or should we go the whole distance because I definitely don't want my wife falling in love with someone else again but I feel like since we're stronger than it might not happen but she's so giddy about this guy and I understand all women are when you meet someone new!
LOL I need someone else in my head besides me
