Hello all, I find myself in a difficult spot. My fiancé has been aware of my fetish since the beginning of our relationship, and at first would indulge me with teasing stories from her past (she has much more experience than I do and I find that so thrilling). At one point she even indulged my fantasy entirely, meeting up with two black and well endowed strangers at a hotel for some back to back fucking. She sent me the videos and I busted the largest load I have ever experienced, when she returned to me I reclaimed her well used pussy 7 times in a 24hr period so safe to say, being cuckolded is my kink. Since then we broke up, spent some months apart during which time she slept with some other guys. When we reconnected and I couldn’t resist asking about those encounters she was deeply triggered. Fast forward to a few days ago and she unleashes a torrent at me saying how disgusting it is that I should want that for the woman I want to be my wife, and how she’ll never be enough for me simply because I will always find her more attractive when another dick is involved, she demands I never speak of it again. She says that if I even think about it I would be violating her boundaries by putting her in a position in my imagination she would never willingly submit to, and basically that if I can’t shut this off I must be sick and not actually in love with her.
I love her, I want her to feel safe and secure in our relationship. I’ve long been accepting of her desire to stay faithful to each other with no others involved for the rest of our days, she’s more than enough for me in every single way. But I just don’t know if I’ll be able to shut this down inside of me, it feels so deeply rooted. I’ve long been ashamed of my kink and only recently became accepting of it as simply a divergent sexual preference that somewhere along the way became a part of who I am. And now my own fiancée is all but telling me I ought to be ashamed of these desires and repress them at the cost of losing her, I just don’t know what to do.
Has anyone experienced anything like this? Any tips for how I can talk to her? How can I explain that it’s the very fact that she is perfect for me and means the world to me is the reason the taboo of sharing her bears so much potency? Any help would be much appreciated.
I love her, I want her to feel safe and secure in our relationship. I’ve long been accepting of her desire to stay faithful to each other with no others involved for the rest of our days, she’s more than enough for me in every single way. But I just don’t know if I’ll be able to shut this down inside of me, it feels so deeply rooted. I’ve long been ashamed of my kink and only recently became accepting of it as simply a divergent sexual preference that somewhere along the way became a part of who I am. And now my own fiancée is all but telling me I ought to be ashamed of these desires and repress them at the cost of losing her, I just don’t know what to do.
Has anyone experienced anything like this? Any tips for how I can talk to her? How can I explain that it’s the very fact that she is perfect for me and means the world to me is the reason the taboo of sharing her bears so much potency? Any help would be much appreciated.
