To be honest, cuckolding consists of 2 parts like a lock and key or a joint venture. We became distant as she started to do more without me or take my views on to consideration. E.g. she was seeing these 2 BBC from her office on the regular. One was really nice and the other was a peice of ....... Seeing me licking his seed off my gf toes while dressed as a maid felt that have him licence to slap me really fucking hard across the face for fun. Despite my objection, after that she continued fucking him without me being present and eventually moved in with him. I was devastated but at that point I was on the hook but there was no mutual gratification. After a year of being single but not been able to move on as she was constantly sending me pics and texts for attention and money (and I would eventually go running back just to be fed his seed from a used condom and then feel remorseful) I cut all ties and stepped away from cuckolding and her. I needed to get away from the toxic relationship. That included her friends.
I still crave cuckolding so much but I have to have a say in the relationship and it cannot grow out of control to the point you lose the very special bond you have. I am hoping that doesn't happen with my current gf, but all I want her to do every night is fuck another man, make me clean up and then put on a strap on and fuck my ass to an inch of my life while telling me how much of a good little slut I am.